Normal?

I have waited 3 months to get in to see the pulminologist.  I often wonder, had I been able to get in right away when my lungs were giving me the most trouble, if the diagnosis would have been different.  As of now, my lungs sound normal.  Really?  They don't feel normal.  They burn when I take deep breaths, they struggle when I try to exercise.

I have told my friend that on my deathbed the doctors will still not be able to find out what is wrong with me.  My headstone will read:  All the tests came back normal.

In fairness to the Pulminologist, she is trying to be very thorough.  She didn't just look me over and send me on my way.  More tests have been ordered (yippee?), one such test being an ultrasound on my heart.  Could it be my heart that is causing all this anguish?  At this point I expect it to come back normal like everything else.

What they don't understand it this is not normal FOR ME.  The tests may say that, but it is not my normal.  I understand that doctors are human, that they don't have all the answers.  I am just not sure where else to go.  And so I continue forth, with a prayer in my heart that soon I will understand this journey I have been asked to travel.